demo9's 2000 Chevrolet S-10

This has ben the year for change for me. Many things have happened within my life that have showed me that the way i was doing things was the wrong way to go. I was recently divorced due to a conflict between my wife and I being able to live together. But in the time that has elapsed I have come to realize that it wasn't about me and it wasn't about her. My brother gave me some sage advice and I still play it over and over in my head. It takes two to make a relationship and it takes two to break a relationship. I used to think that it was all about her not doing, or doing things that made me upset. I would get all bent out of shape about the littlest things; house being a mess, trash not taken out, laundry everywhere...etc. But it turns out that those were the things that weren't bothering me. It was the fear of not being respected and listened to that made me upset with her. Over the last couple of months I have learned that in that relationship God was telling me to follow him and I chose not to. I have learned that because I was not listening to him telling me things through my wife that we are now divorcing. I feel ashamed and I have had to struggle with this for a while. But over the last couple of weeks I have taken that time and I have renewed my promise to God and I have chosen to follow, without questions, without hesitation. I have accepted God back into my life and he has helped me get past the fear of being alone. He has been there for me and has shown me the path I should take. I have realized that my life is not my own, I am not the driver in this race. I am merely a copilot and God is the one at the controls. People have told me many times.."God doesn't give us anything that we cannot handle." I have to say with a thankful heart that I understand what this all means. God has done wonderful things through me and with my life and I look forward to sharing with others His awesome love and compassion!